Life is not always fair.

This weekend was a hard weekend. Jason was moved to a hospice patient. In the past when I would visit I would leave with some hope. I always felt it was an up hill battle, but at least there was hope. For the first few weeks you could cling to some small improvement and say that things were at least headed in the right direction. But the words from the doctors in Florida have stayed in my mind. When they said that maybe Jason would be the miracle you just knew things were not good. There is still a glimmer of hope, but at this point only a miracle from God could make him better. Jason is beyond the point where the doctors can help him.

I  felt so empty leaving his room on Friday. It was a total different feeling than the past. I know that we will all be together again, but the separation will be so hard. You just realize that things will never be the same again. You realize how fragile life is. My heart aches for Lynzi and the girls. Jason was a hands on dad and the girls and Lynzi will miss him so much. We all will.

On Sunday we went to Sacrament and then headed down to see Jason. Things were about the same. On our way home decided to invite the girls to see Toy Story 3 and give Lynzi a much needed break. We had a great time with the girls but it's hard to see them and not think about what is to come. We met my parents at Perkins for supper with the girls. They are always entertaining, never a dull minute with those girls around. We enjoyed a few great laughs about the movie. My favorite was "Big Baby", she cracked me up! Big baby was the enforcer in the movie. Even though it was a kids movie there were some great subtle humor for the parents. I tease the girls to watch out or big baby will be coming for them!

The coming weeks are going to be hard. I'm dreading them.